I've had nothing to write here for a while. I've thought of writing things and I've even come up with a few excuses as to why I haven't written and they are as follows:
1) I'm busy
2) No one reads it anyway
3) I really dislike the layout and it overwhelms me when I look at it
4) I might as well write in my journal, since no one reads this.

But I felt the need today to write something so the world could find it...even if it's a limited world of me and myself in the future.

As some people know I've really struggled with the decision to stay in Philly. At times I've been happy, content, joyful, and excited, but other times I've been bitter, sad, lonely, unsettled, etc. I went away this past weekend because I was sad. I think being a young adult is ok. Generally I'm ok with the changes and to be honest I don't think they'll be too big of a struggle.

EXCEPT my friends.

Everyone knows I cherish them, but I really cherish them. I really miss you guys (if you read this). I was sad because I've lost my comfort, my rocks, my vent-listeners, but most of all being blessed everyday by your presence. These past two weeks have been hard. At first I was really jealous some of my friends went to California together and were having fun while I sat at work. I was jealous not because they were outside having fun, but because I was missing out on memories. Then I was sad because talking on g-chat is nothing like calling people up. And I was sad about not having my go-to Sunday lunch buddy, which had become simple, routine, and comfortable. My best friends are gone.

I still miss these things and many others. But I really think that after coming back from DC God has begun to show me what it's like to be excited about this future. To be excited about the work He's getting ready to do here. I can't wait to be broken this year. I can't wait to be used this year. I can wait to learn this year. I can't wait to grow this year.